I am not the only soul that thinks in terms of lifetimes. Emmett Fox also agrees that we are all born with different game plans. His description is something like this: we are all born with our own hand of cards to play. Some of us have better cards, but the game is the same. That game of life is to learn how to do the best with the cards that have been dealt to us throughout our life.
When you consider reincarnation as a possibility, you will understand that your past deeds created the new scene of life that you are now living. So......, think in terms of life as a continuum. It never stops.
One of my friends in her 70's mentions often that she is glad she is nearing the end as she does not like what she sees. I agree, there is a huge amount of living that does not look enjoyable, but the challenge for all of us is this. We do not stop living after the physical death occurs, we continue to work upon recreating a better place while on the other side.. This is either done as a physical guide to a soul living on the earth plane or it could be in helping to send thought forms in the way of suggestions to help stop all of the chaos created by all of us from either past or present lives. Our deeds do not die, nor is the karmic slate cleared as we exist in death. We continue to reap what we sew, if not this life, then the one forthcoming when it is time to reappear.
Don't you think that it would be a better place to live if we first learn to clean up the mess that many of us have created? In deeds, all are paid back to us either positively or negatively depending upon how we lived. God is not the puppet of bad news we are the authors of our own creation. Our God gives us all choice, and sometimes it take a while to learn here.
Try this for a change. Learn to change your thinking, and watch how you deal with all souls with the thought that all of your thoughts, both good and bad return to you in kind in order for you to learn better choices.
It became easier for me to stop drinking and smoking with this thought. I did not want to repeat that lesson any more, so it might be a better choice to begin now with your journey.
This is one reason why suicide is considered a "no no". It is of course forgiven, but remember all that you did not learn by choosing to exist just has to repeat itself again in a similar or same manner. Not a pleasant thought to think about, but it is a form of "second chance" given to us by the God Energy in order to clean our slate.